I am so tired today. Yesterday I flew around work like a happy butterfly making everyone smile. Today I am sure they felt my less than wonderful mood. I hate it for them because they count on me to make the night great. Sigh. Tomorrow is another day. I will not sit up all night tonight. I will sleep well. I will eat well in the morning and sit by the pool all day soaking up vitamin D while watching the prettiest little girl float in her big duck with her huge purple sunglasses on, giggles. Yes, tomorrow will be great and everyone I see will benefit from it.

I came home from work to a very much needed new sink that I have begged to have for over a year now and a promise for new caulk between the tiles in both bathrooms tomorrow. It is unfortunate the extreme measures one must use to get what is needed sometimes. I actually made an appointment with a man about a house and said I was leaving this one if things did not change and they are changing. I almost did it though. I almost left. One day I may but not today. Things are getting better around here slowly but very surely. For once in my life I am sticking to my guns.

"If things did not change there would be no butterflies." My new buddy gave me a plack with that saying on it just this week and I love it and I need it. She is a good woman. I am glad she is in my life. I need her too. It has been a long time since I have had a friend to hang out with. We sat at the pool all day yesterday before work. We got some good color. She showed up wearing the cutest hat and suit, giggles. I have longed for female companionship for years. God, please "grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference".